This post came out of a feeling I’ve been experiencing. I’ve noticed it a few times over the past few weeks, but haven’t really figured out the source. I think I might have found the culprit.

Last weekend I was driving home from Target. Finley and I went and were charged with buying a George Foreman grill, and a measuring cup. This is a dangerous assignment, because Magan was at work and I was all alone in Target. I am very capable of buying the whole store. (In any case we came home with the only 2 items we were sent to buy).

On the way home I started feeling melancholy. This was quite odd because I just came from Target and was on a “I just got a George Foreman” high. I thought back on the day and tried to remember anything that went wrong, or maybe something bad that had happened. I came up with nothing. Suddenly I realized what it was, Magan wasn’t with us.

Since I meet Magan we haven’t spent more than a few days apart. In fact, I think the longest we’ve gone without seeing each other is 3 days. Needless to say I like spending time with her. We had Finley about 3 months ago and our lives have changed completely. Our time together is much more meaningful.

We’ve become quite the modern family. It’s rare that the 3 of us don’t go somewhere all together. It’s not that we can’t function away from each other, we just seem to bring out the best in ourselves when we’re together. So if one of us is missing, it feels like a hole.

In one sense it’s a little ridiculous to think that a trip to Target can bring up these feelings. But on the other hand, it just shows me how much I love and care about my family. If you’d have asked me a year ago how much I loved and cared for Magan, I’d have given you a completely different answer than if you asked me now. Having a child together has only strengthened our relationship. Sure, there are times when we don’t get along (this is usually when we’re sleep deprived), but as a whole we are a much better couple.

Basically, I love my wife. I love my Daughter. If I could, I’d spend all my time with them. Too bad work and responsibilities get in the way.